He is coming ''Home'' today! I wonder what does home mean to him? We have been migratory birds for quite a while now!

Today is one of those days..

I think I got it all wrong...I got it all wrong!

I think what would have happened if I 'd said yes to his mum..!

I think where would I be now, having winter breaks in Dizin ski slopes or I was a divorced single mum, or a mum in a marriage .... where would I be today!?

Possibly not here...having a doctorate and doing a care work!

I am having a bad day and it's been long time since last time I had a good day! when was it? I have difficulties remembering a good day! Maybe it was the day I got chosen to give a talk at the conference...or maybe it was the day I heard about the interview! Yes, possibly it was the last time as I started to make dreams and had '' hope'' ! Not much of left though!

I went on the Facebook and looked at his photos, that was mad...I suddenly remembered how hard I tried to have him, how he broke my heart and when he knew he was mistaken, it was already too late!

Maybe I made many mistakes in my life...

I think I am so tired of this this life...full of mistakes but they are starting to smell like regrets!