Stressssssssssssssssssssssssed!

Not really looking forward to get the complaint outcome, specially now that I now half of the building hate me!
But that does not mean I don't need your good wishes and prayers!

Feel excited and also upset about the presidential election in Iran! I still have hope for any changes, but such a shame that there might not be any changes at all!
They come and go and act for their own people...us, we are abandoned ones that did not fit to their beliefs and policies!

Got a new deadline for outcome of my complaint! It is next week! I am totally stressed! Cannot think properly...
I want to pray but believing that God wants the best for me, stops me from praying...I want to finish my studies...I want a real life!

Having a morning of boybands memoirs!
Pictures in my Head....west life!
Pictures in My Head by Westlife on Back Home

Want to pack up a bag, two underwear, two stocks and that's it! Can wear layers on top...

And just leave....going no where...not telling any one...! 

I feel like an outsider these days...Any where I go! And apparently I trusted the Big fat Lie that says: Home is where your heart is! Possibly I do not own one...

I may get sick all over the place! I mean literally sick! On you....On your lover....On your fancy shoes....On your smart ass...On your happy shiny face....On your PhD....On your kid( rare possibility as I adore most of them regardless of evilness of bloody parents)....
I may get sick ....On you!
Just saying in advance so you can prepare yourself emotionally!

Absolutely devastated! I am waiting for the outcome of my complaint! To be honest not positive about it at all! Just so worried and stressed that can't explain it! It has passed the level of explanation!