This really sucks that I don't have Farsi language on my laptop at work.....I just wanted to edit one word in later posts, I just deleted a letter and couldn't replace it! Any way, I tried to get tan with British spring sun! which obviously turned to a pale red shade on my legs...Doesn't matter though as long as I was still on the ground and not gone with the wind!

I'm trying to work and really need to talk to some one...anyone...I need to communicate, as I have been trapped in the house and office for last ten days....watched loads of movies again...hmmm, not really! I watched Pina, I am so proud of my self that I made the effort to go and watch it even if there wasn't anyone to come with me to watch it! I'm still so inspired by the movie and that powerful and brave woman!

I have so many ideas in my mind and I have so many work in the lab that I have to do as soon as possible but unfortunately can't be bothered to do them...He killed my passion, honestly he did! I can not say I hate him because there is not a matter of hate or love, I just feel so sorry for him that how desperate he is and how hard he is trying to achieve something and he always chooses the wrong and hardest road......Just feeling sorry for him!

Screw him...I should be sorry for myself who is trapped here between my passion and life......fu....k all of these thoughts...I should stop talking...

I should stop asking this question: Does it worth it?

I should accept everything and try to do my best....

I should go and do my best!