I felt so scared, so numb, so insensitive! I just knew one thing: It is not fair! That was the only thing I was sure of! I felt lost, I felt lonely, I felt like a looser! The only thing I was sure of was: There should be a good reason for all of these!

I feel strong, I feel I have done everything that I could, I feel like God is here with me, I feel so strong!

I am sure there are good reasons for all these things; I am sure....