I wish I could find the right way of thinking...
I am tired....tired as hell...tired of being positive, tired of focusing on positive points...
Tired of pretending that I am fine!
Well, I am not fine! I am not any where close to fine! If he was not around I don't know where I could be and what I was doing...
By the way, it is really important to focus on the fact that he is around and I have him!