Feeling so ....(Please fill the blank if you can)!
It's cold here..to be fare the weather is constantly testicular...(Persian expression: something crappy as balls)
It is cold, sunny and rainy and bloody cold! For God's sake..it is spring!
Ah well, my lentils don't seem to be eager to grow! So at the moment not so fussed about the whole new year...and I am a little bit fussed as well! 
I lost the feeling of new day, year ...week ...as my life in a wired fast ...slow motion of emptiness and repeating style....

I am so numb.....and this scares me as hell!
May no one gets numb, as brings nothing with it!