Whenever I get pissed at life- which is a quite common thing these days- I go and look at the old photos...like it is going to heal me! No I just need a real trigger to make me cry!
Sometimes I feel that my head is swollen, got soft inside and if I push it at one point, the juice is going to come out...the pressure is going to be released...the pain is going to fade....
And the thoughts of leaving or keep trying, are going to disappear!
I wish, I hope it was true...one push and squeeze would help....
These days nothing heals me...
constant silence and constant waiting...I waited so long that some days I forget what I am even waiting for!