I am not sure how should I feel, when I was told officially to be suicidal!
Well, I thought about it, and I didn't lie about my thoughts when I was asked...I think I could just say no! 
But I did think about it! 
It was upsetting...it was dark and cold....and...!
But I can not find a name for the feelings that I have now! It's like being called so cheesy...It's like that somebody is shouting in your ears: You didn't have the balls!
I think more than cheesy, I was strong! 
I could have lied but I didn't!