Nausea...that's what it is called! One of my most fears in the world! All parts of your abdomen is forced upward...and then contractions that you can't control! It is all pain and taste of acid all over the place....Your nose is filled with the smell of puke....

I have these feelings every day recently...couple of times a day....

Just to make it clear...no pregnancy is involved!

It is all stress and empty stomach I suppose! It is so scary to eat though....as the moment you start chewing, you are constantly thinking about vomiting them out! At least I do think like that...feel like that!

Hey new year came and left! 

Back at home they are still in grief...no sign of happiness....It is all gone...and growing bear, wearing black...backing and cooking...does not change the facts of life!

Here I am ....lonely and trying to cope! I am trying so hard...but there are some facts that I can not accept or change or...

I am dealing with Nausea!